Life As We Know It Deluxe

Home again, home again. Well, back again.

Planning a new short film project. Should get the ball rolling pretty soon. Another comedy. It'll easier than my last one, anyone will be easier than that one. This one I'll be dealing with sixteen actors. So I'll have to keep them happy with plenty of craft services. Even if it is just a one day, ten hour film shoot. I'm guessing I'll just provide a lot of pizzas and diet Coke and regular Coke.

Been doing the online dating thing a lot. Had some second dates but that's about it. No real chemistry. Oh, I could have banged plenty of them. But either they were not interested in me or vicey versa. Life seems empty a lot of the time.

I'm back on the Master Cleanse. Need something to kick start the weight loss. I did it for the full forty days the last time I did it a couple years ago. Wasn't easy but I hung in there. I might go for fifty or thirty this time. Who knows. Say what you want about the MC, it works.

I miss my comfort food. It was sort of pathetic but I liked coming home at the end of the work day with a couple turkey burgers and a plain baked potato and a bottle of wine and champagne and chilling in front of the computer with lots of ketchup and dijon.

Food and drinking is an activity for me. Something to do. Since my life is very, very empty. I could maintain that diet and be healthy if I was just a hardcore exerciser or more athletic. I never used to hike before I did the cleanse the last time so maybe after this time I can work towards being a foodie and more athletic. A lot of people do it.

I'm liking my apartment a lot more these days. Finally wised up and called my apartment manager and they said they do carpet cleaning, which makes sense since they have to clean up an apartment when someone new moves in, and I now have a pristine clean carpet. It makes me feel like I've moved into a whole new place. It's good for the soul and soothing to the mind. It feels good to be in The One Bunk Hilton. I like where I live. It gets lonely sometimes especially without some comfort food, sex or good wine, beer or liquor. I should learn to cook. So on those nights when I know I'm going to have a lot of lonely days and nights for a long while to come I should come home, turn on some Sinatra, enjoy some fine wine, make myself up some great pasta and just enjoy being on my own. Which I do at times. But I just need to find more ways to keep myself entertained.

Mostly I want to subsititute two vices, drinking and food for another. Sex. But that's hard to come by for yours truly. I'm getting better and getting it these days. But still it doesn't come by as often as I'd like. I hooked up with a pretty good looking redhead MILF a few months ago and she seemed pleased as proverbial punch after we did it fast and furious at her place two times in a row. She seemed impressed. But I never heard back from her after that. Shoot.

I should be happy. I make a good living, have a good new car, am still fairly young, live in a decent place in a quiet area. But a lot of times I'm gloomy and lonely. I'm not sure if God exists but I find myself praying to this possibly non-existent God to send me a woman or women into my life.

I'm still obsessing over things like I usually do. Things that happened many moons ago any normal person would forget. About people who were cruel or hateful to me.

As I said I'm back on the Master Cleanse. Did it once before for forty days. Hope to do more this time. I was in eating mode for awhile now I'm in cleansing mode. When in eating mode I'm heavier and feel no woman will want me. Even though a few have.

I shouldn't let me haters get me down. Haters gonna hate. We're all imperfect hateful little human beings sometimes.

I try and treat people with respect in day to day life but what good does it do.

Sometimes I wish the world would end or just be like that movie 28 Days Later as I've said before. But that could be a problem if you got hurt or sick since there wouldn't be anymore hospitals. Unless you came across a military base of surviving humans.

Just wish I could be normal as I always say. Guess I'll just have to keep trying per usual. Until I snap. Which I hope I don't. And probably won't since I don't dig drama.

Salud.