Alone Again...

...unnaturally.

Broke it off with the female friend today.

Feel bad, empty. The physical side of the relationship was becoming a problem for me. Even though she is a great girl, a great friend.

She was like my link to the outside world. Even though with a little effort I can get to that world myself.

Locked picture on the new film this week. Or 99.9% percent locked. Now have to move onto the next short. And from their a low budget horror feature.

Going to be getting back five figures from the government in write offs from the last film. Which basically broke even saleswise.

All the tax return money goes to paying off multiple credit cards I foolishly racked up over the years.

That aside, I feel terrible about letting the girl in my life go. She told me she loved me. And meant it. I told her I cared about her before she left and I hated hurting her. And she believed me.

Right now I'm feeling like the end scene of remake of Alfie. Wondering what it's all about.

Old habits die hard, harder than November rain...