I Wanna Be Fit!

I want to be slim, trim, in shape.

Have a tauter, tigher, thinner, in shape body. Sure, I'd love to look like Brad Pitt in Fight Club -- but I'll settle for just in shape, slightly muscular.

I'm not that bad as I am. Just want to get rid of paunch around mid section, tighten and firm up. Like some chicks I've seen in adult videos. This one girl's body was firm, nice, slightly sculpted. A regular fuck machine.

I want the male version of her. It just takes a little work and a lot of patience. And watching what you eat. Limiting caloric in take is everything. And mild strength training. I don't like cardio.

Onward onward brave exercise warriors! I will accomplish this, oh beasts of burdern and kings of Atlantis! Dunno what that last bit means but it sounds coo-coo-cool!

Random Throughts On Karma

There is no karma - some terrible people will live long and happy lives, while some wonderful people will live short and unpleasant lives. People are not ultimately held accountable for their actions, except by other people.

How else could one explain how so many bad people are so wealthy and successful? Just look at most politicians and billionaires.

In life it seems getting ahead means stepping on someone else. Sometimes anyway. I've known this for awhile. But just thinking of it now makes me a bit sad.

It also takes the reins off on life. Pretty much anything goes. Case in point, the great Woody Allen film Crimes And Misdemeanors.

Shall We Dance

Wonderful movie. Seen it four times. The scene where they use Peter Gabriel's song The Book Of Love is heart breakingly beautiful.

The films tells the story of an older businessman unhappy with his life and how ballroom dancing helps him find happiness again. John Clark, the businessman, is beautifully played by Richard Gere. I also loved the ballroom dancing movie Strictly Ballroom too! Man, do I have a jones for ballroom dancing movies now?

It's based on a Japanese film from the 1990's. I want to see the original. But I love this remake to pieces. Is it flawed in bits and pieces? Sure, but overall it flows and works beautifully. Jennifer Lopez redeems her many bad acting choices in previous films with this gem.

Shall we dance, Mr. Clark? Bravo!

Dying Of Loneliness

Can't take it anymore. I'm dying of loneliness. I can't connect with anybody. My life is so boring, so empty. I want desperately for a woman to wrap her arms around me...

I'm so pathetic. A no talent failure. Wait, I'm not that bad. But -- I hate the human race. Wish I could be happy and content on my own without the need for others. People are so mean spirited and nasty. But then so am I at times.

Can't take it. Can't take the loneliness much longer. Or maybe I can. I've taken it all my life. Wish I was a rock star so I could have women fall at my feet and take some sweet, soft, warm comfort in their arms. Maybe the poets are right, maybe love is the answer.

If only I could get my hands on some.